Sobriety
Sobriety - my journey on getting sober, trials and tribulations, pressures and anxieties all for the freedom and carefree life.
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Sober – Six Month Milestone
I’m still amazed at myself for being over my sober six month milestone Crikey, how long??? how did I get here? my sober six month milestone? I have decided I am not going to torture myself for not writing regular posts anymore, I began this for pleasure and self-awareness so, logically, it is more for when I feel the need to write more than stressing about getting content out don’t you think? Having said that, letting things go for over a month you can well imagine I have L.O.A.D.S to get off my chest and tell you. However, for today I am coming in with a great big bang. I…
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The Euphoria of Sobriety
I think I have found the Euphoria of Sobriety How do you find Euphoria in sobriety? For me, it was by accident. I had an evening out with my friend last night, she very kindly suggested that we went for a meal. She was obviously being extremely considerate of my recent sobriety stint. Which I am proud to say is currently at 146 days. We had arranged for her to meet me when I finished work at 5:30pm. All this though was leading me to overthink most of the day.Questions of the following nature filled my head : This continued way into the afternoon, right until I voiced my concerns…
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Sober Weekend in Paris
A girls weekend in Paris, another holiday under my belt completely sober Allow me to apologise for my lack of posts, time has ran away with me since my return from Cyprus. The re introduction to an old friend was to blame. He has enlightened me to the possibilities of the AI graphics world. Something you may not have been aware about me. Many moons ago, I delved into the world of website design. Why? Well in my early years I dabbled with importing and selling jewellery. Our idea was to buy in some jewellery and sell it online. Simple yes? I’m honestly going to tell you about my sober…
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Sober Gifts
Gifts with motivation for being and staying Sober. Wow, I now have a sober gifts shop! Undoubtedly it is why I have been a little quiet on the blogging front in truth. Contrary to belief these things take a little more of your time than you would think. The idea came from a thought that I want something to mark my sobriety. Maybe to show the world that I am very serious indeed in staying a Sober Bad Ass. Now a little over 4 months, it’s the longest I have ever gone without a drink. As well as feeling super proud I want to treat myself to one of these…
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Sober Mood Swings
I have not really had many sober mood swings but this morning… serious WTF! What was that trigger? Let me begin from last night. We are nearing the end of our holiday. Hubby has declared that we should have early meals now instead of nights out. I’m ok with this, I feel I have had to overcompensate my happiness to keep the judgement at bay and it’s now taking its toll. But first he suggested let’s go for drinks with your sister and partner. Unbeknown to me, the football was on. They became engrossed as most men do watching whilst my sister slithered into intoxication and I was left sat…
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Sober Singer
I DID IT! Last night I was a sober singer! The nerves hit hard, I almost bottled it but I did it. One of my goals of self improvement in my sobriety was to get my ass up in front of strangers and sing. This doesn’t come easy. Being a true Virgo I struggle with perfection and my voice is not perfect. I am no Adele but I think I can hold a tune. What was the song I hear you ask (or maybe not 😆) I Sang flowers by Miley Cyrus. A pretty easy one to get started. I would have loved to stay and do more but there…
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Sobriety Is My New Normal
Others need to accept it too It has become apparent to me this last few days that my sobriety may still not be taken seriously. can you believe it?! Starting this holiday on a high with strong feelings of not wanting to drink, this is now niggling me a little. Desperately trying to rise above what people think is a constant drama in my own head that nobody else sees. So I am back again, writing this down to try and make sense of it all. Am I over reacting? Imagining that the party I am with are in denial that I won’t drink again. No. I am not, my…
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Sober Holiday -Getting Ready
I’m back already, wanting to tail end my last post before my thoughts fled. Getting ready for this sober holiday is what I’m going to try and share. You all know by now that my last drink was at the end of my last holiday to India. 86 days to be exact. It was after this trip the realisation of how I was viewing things was all wrong. Blaming myself for other peoples thoughts and feeling was not on me. Feeling guilt is something I mention a few times. It was quite a substantial part of my drinking. Applying rules only to brake them would certainly bring the guilt on…
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Sober Holiday -First Attempt
So here goes, my first attempt at a sober holiday. The holiday was to Tenerife in March. With dry January well behind me I was in full flow of never touching a drop of poison again mode. Feeling robust the holiday was booked for myself, hubby and his parents. The scene has been set in other post of how my family are a family of drinkers. Just for context, this was at a time when I was on the absolute beginning of my trying to be sober journey. First there was concern when it was announced that I didn’t want to drink on this holiday. Quickly followed the amusement and…
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My husband’s Drinking
Sobriety Changes You Why does my husband’s drinking bother me so much? Sobriety will inevitably change you, it gives you back your life. A life you wouldn’t have realised you were losing to alcohol until you stop. Drinking alcohol also changes a person, when we drink we often lack motivation and begin to care less about our appearance. Our mood deepens into depression and problems, even the simple ones become enormous challenges. Facing Challenges Having faced some of those challenges this week it’s been yet another tough one. However I stayed sober, and I am so thankful I did as I began to voice my husband’s drinking habits. On Monday…
