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Sober Mood Swings
I have not really had many sober mood swings but this morning… serious WTF! What was that trigger? Let me begin from last night. We are nearing the end of our holiday. Hubby has declared that we should have early meals now instead of nights out. I’m ok with this, I feel I have had to overcompensate my happiness to keep the judgement at bay and it’s now taking its toll. But first he suggested let’s go for drinks with your sister and partner. Unbeknown to me, the football was on. They became engrossed as most men do watching whilst my sister slithered into intoxication and I was left sat…
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Sober Singer
I DID IT! Last night I was a sober singer! The nerves hit hard, I almost bottled it but I did it. One of my goals of self improvement in my sobriety was to get my ass up in front of strangers and sing. This doesn’t come easy. Being a true Virgo I struggle with perfection and my voice is not perfect. I am no Adele but I think I can hold a tune. What was the song I hear you ask (or maybe not 😆) I Sang flowers by Miley Cyrus. A pretty easy one to get started. I would have loved to stay and do more but there…
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Sobriety Is My New Normal
Others need to accept it too It has become apparent to me this last few days that my sobriety may still not be taken seriously. can you believe it?! Starting this holiday on a high with strong feelings of not wanting to drink, this is now niggling me a little. Desperately trying to rise above what people think is a constant drama in my own head that nobody else sees. So I am back again, writing this down to try and make sense of it all. Am I over reacting? Imagining that the party I am with are in denial that I won’t drink again. No. I am not, my…
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Sober Holiday -Getting Ready
I’m back already, wanting to tail end my last post before my thoughts fled. Getting ready for this sober holiday is what I’m going to try and share. You all know by now that my last drink was at the end of my last holiday to India. 86 days to be exact. It was after this trip the realisation of how I was viewing things was all wrong. Blaming myself for other peoples thoughts and feeling was not on me. Feeling guilt is something I mention a few times. It was quite a substantial part of my drinking. Applying rules only to brake them would certainly bring the guilt on…
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Sober Holiday -First Attempt
So here goes, my first attempt at a sober holiday. The holiday was to Tenerife in March. With dry January well behind me I was in full flow of never touching a drop of poison again mode. Feeling robust the holiday was booked for myself, hubby and his parents. The scene has been set in other post of how my family are a family of drinkers. Just for context, this was at a time when I was on the absolute beginning of my trying to be sober journey. First there was concern when it was announced that I didn’t want to drink on this holiday. Quickly followed the amusement and…
